I really should quit Sweet Maria

“I really should quit…
Last night I could not rest I was coughing constantly – and so hard! I thought, that’s it. I have some sort of throat cancer. The smoke felt sharp going down my throat. It hurt. Even though I was resistant at first, I was so miserable I had to go see a doctor. I knew what they’d say though and I didn’t want to hear it. The pain of giving up my cigarettes, the pain of quitting, now that would be truly unbearable x”